=) true. thanks so much my friend. =) also thanks to jonathan for talking to me [was it last night??]. he actually accompanied me online till 4 plus in the morning. of course i know he was busy with other stuff, maybe talking with someone else or sth but yeah. thanks all the same. =)
ANYWAY!!! i just came back from class outing. *laughs head off* super fun!!!! =)) anything concerning my class is always fun i think. hahahahaa... if you guys are reading this, send me any vids or pics taken kiez!! hahahahaha... coz my phone doesn't have much. just like the guys' synchronised swimming antics. heheh.
well. when we first went there aaron got freaking pissed off coz the person told him that you have to 18 and above to check in. so for awhile we were all trying to call people who lived around the area and were above 18 who could help us out yeah. finally aaron's OGL said she'd come down, so we were waiting around for her.
then jishun randomly went: "let me guess. SOMEONE's not in Singapore." then i was like, "yeah, wing's in HongKong." and he was like, "can tell, you don't have that... er... lustre??? radiance??? about you." moca agreed.
am i that easy to read?
well. basically. i guess i might as well be honest. and hope that he hasn't bothered to search for my blog yet.
i've been trying not to think about it, recently. like only hearing from him twice since he went over to HK. once was an email from him consisting of one line, and the other when i caught him online; even then he was more busy watching tv. it's times like these i really wish i could mind-read, or at least tell more definitely what he's feeling at least. sigh. don't really wanna talk much about it. but this is what my blog is for i guess. to vent. and to let you guys who're bothered to find out, about what's troubling me and stuff so yeah.
anyway on to more happy things! xD i fell asleep curled up on the armchair while the rest were playing stuff. then when i woke up, they were just starting to play twister! you know the floor game with the coloured spots. hahahaaa... super fun! played in the second round of four people and ended up last to lose. lost to loong. coz when i was trying to make things difficult for him, i killed myself. =P but it was super fun. hahahahaaaa..
so in a way i'm really looking forward to the new year, another year filled with fun and memories with these people. =) but of course there'll be lots of problems and difficulties and strains...
but these are the times when BIG by Planetshakers will be a great comfort.
my God is big, so strong, so mighty
my God's plan for me goes beyond my wildest dreams
He is my God and
He is refuge
He's the rock on which i stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hands...
beautiful eh?
well well. i guess i'll go and ... hrmz. try to find a blog-hosting site? hahahahaa. or reply elisa twin's email. =) cya peeps.
LATER--
not really supposed to be online still coz my timer's beeped already, but just didn't really feel like going to sleep yet.
realised i haven't been writing much... like i mean i haven't been sitting down with a pen or pencil in hand with paper in front of me like i used to. nowadays i'm just lazing around. sigh. that's coz of my lousy choice for my latest notebook that i call my journal. ichose the black paper one. sigh. stupid me.
but yeah anyway. yesterday (was it really only yesterday?) i met up with serene. =) really had a great time just sitting in starbucks and talking about all sorts of things, getting all sorts of things off our chests. yeahhh... i'm really really thankful for her concern and the support that i know she's always ready to give me, if only i'll ask. support that sometimes only a fellow believer in Christ can give. and yeah. she's there for me. really enjoyed meeting up with her. should do that more often.
after that, went to meet another love of mine. dawn.. =) same thing, we sat down somewhere, ordered something, and just talked. one thing that i'm really glad about her is that how sometimes we are able to just sit quiet, comfortably silent. no need for words, no need to rack your brains for something to say. if i do the latter, it's usually not to fill the silence, it's more of i'm having such a great time talking to her that i just wanna continue. yeah... but it's great. really thank God for her, for these two sisters He's blessed my life with. i guess He knows how much i need them.
and then last night our family went to IMM to walk around... and i FINALLY bought some new jeans... which i've been wanting for quite some time. like initially my mom was thinking of getting me a pair of birks coz i've been talking about them recently. but i decided that i wanted other stuff more urgently so between that and the birks, i chose the former. yupz. and i guess it's a good choice. like i can get a pair of good teva slippers [still looking for them] earphones [just cheap ones, for now], and my yummy jeans, one of which i wore today. =) yayy. comfyyyyyy. actually not really. esp while crouching on the twister mat. but i got thru. =DDDD *smiels*
ok now that all that stuff is at least recorded SOMEWHERE, i can finally be at peace and go to sleep. I MEANT GO TO BED. lol. don't worry about me.
i'm thinking of moving to blogspot. coz photobucket is conking out on me. taking so long to load all the time nowadays. wonder why. blehh. then now there are all the photos that i wanna put up but can't coz photobucket's being an idiot. grrrrr.
ohh. it just might work. =) and then after this i'm going to change liao. roarrr..
anyway... thanks so much all for your thoughts this christmas guys. really appreciate it--love y'all so much!
they got a pinata~! hahaha... i'm very proud of martin. third person to give it a go and he whacked the head right off! xD sadly, i didn't really take alot of photos... hoping that some videos and stuff'll pop up. should coup from jonathan. xD won this balloon for "most creative"... dressing i think. wore this off-shoulder thing. super uncomfortable i don't think i'll ever wear it again. grrr. poor mom. she paid 23 bucks for that thing. got swindled. grah.
well anyway i don't have anything else coz i just realised amanda forbid me to put the picture i took of her on. owell.
the games they planned were quite fun lahz. =) well done girls! hahahaa.. i guess it's really surprising how people change to rise up to greatness. like they're organising about half the stuff going on in YE now, and such a main clique in it, but when we first came up in sec 1 they were like this whiny bunch of... erm... bitchy people. xD which kinda makes way for some hope for the upcoming batch. who really grate on my nerves... except for sherrill. she has already done quite some growing from this little girl who was so irritating and reciting the woodchuck tongue-twister over and over to some... hahahhaaa AUNTY kinda lass. LOL. i should shut up now, shouldn't i?
spent the day with Ah Kor, my aunt on my father's side. basically we went for lunch at orchard hotel with aunty LayCheng, then to Victoria concert hall for TrueWayPresbyterian's joint musical production with another church. .... i shall not comment. it wasn't that good. Ah Kor fell asleep, she said. i didn't coz i was busy picking out their mistakes.
but it all boils down to their effort and their heart for God. if they did their utmost, not for their glory but for His, then i'm sure He takes delight in their offering. and if He's happy with it, who would dare argue? not me.
just a guideline and encouragement to everyone out there, performer or no.
i suddenly realised i'm getting alot of pink stuff.
well anyway yupz. lunch, musical, and then i hung around some more with Ah Kor. had dinner with her and Uncle Tsujimoto at some japanese restaurant in orchard... really couldn't take it already. i consumed so much food yesterday that i had to keep holding my breath coz or else i'd just feel like i was gonna burst.
this is terrible. is this how being pregnant feels like?? SCARY.
yeah anyway well after that, they gave me a lift to Mt Carmel... hahahaa it's like when i stepped in and started looking at all the familiar faces, i suddenly remembered that there were alot alot of people whom i know in that church. but i didn't really move around because i was feeling too bloated. i only realised elisa was around like after the show when everyone had flooded outside the room and she screamed when she saw me. xD funnyy.
lionel said they took one month to prepare for this. i say: WOW.
the performance wasn't like an exact storyline.. it was like many tiny pieces of performances brought together. basically about Jesus being the Light of the world who came to save us all. the choir was beautiful. i haven't heard so many of those songs before, have no idea where they got them. but they're quite nice. =)
i think if they had more time, maybe a month or just two weeks more to practice, intensively... it could have gone from good to near perfection, considering the rate that they were working at. well. perfection by my standards. which are surprisingly high lol considering what my own abilities are. i don't know. maybe coz of da, shu, mel ng and mel in church, my expectations for dancing is like really really high. hahahahaaa. oops.
anyway... yeah... like quite alot of stuff's been happening... i can't wait for tuesday, when dawn'll return... and then we have kinda until Feb to really talk and catch up and make new memories together, to laugh at next time.
so many things... arghs shucks la, last night my handphone keychain thing broke. you know those tubes with the coloured gel water, and then there'll be this rice with a name written on it floating inside? yeah. mine broke. it has my name on one side of the rice, and Wing's on the other.
now in normal cheesy HK serial movies, this would be a bad omen.
but my God is bigger than that. He is greater. WAYY greater.
that thought, it's really a comfort when i begin to think too much, usually. like about the future, what i'm gonna do, blablabla. who doesn't? but it's such an assurance to know that whatever happens, good or bad, it's in the hands of an Almighty being who has the best in mind for me, because He loves me.
there's been alot to think about recently. like coz my options are still open, though i definitely wanna be in arts stream when i go university, college, whatever you wanna call it... i have no idea what i wanna be in the future, i have no fixed course that i plan to take as yet. and there's suddenly alot of considerations that just popped up, alot of paths and sacrifices that i can choose to take, find ways to get into blabla. no one can tell me what's gonna happen next in my life. no one knows whether he'll leave me, or if we'll make it, even if i take steps so that i can go with him even if he has to go. no one knows.
enya says Only Time. *laughs*
ahh. oh well. there's so much more thoughts to vomit out, but they're things that i can't afford to write here. wait. maybe there's one more.
GUARD YOUR HEART.
I'M NOT SAYING NOT TO LOVE...
JUST...
GUARD YOUR HEART.
people have been telling me that. people who are close to me, people who are older, people with experience. they've been telling me this.
on the one hand, i know that they are right. it is the way i can prevent from being hurt. badly.
but on the other hand, there's something that feels dreadfully wrong about that piece of advice.
how?
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:06 a.m.:.
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.:Thursday, December 21, 2006:.
Curse of the Golden Flower.
just came back from watching the movie with my family... er. ok. i hope no one's expecting a review on this. coz my reviews suck.
anyway just a brief summary before that we went to IMM's fish and co. to eat... yummmm hahahahaaa i like fish. *smiles beatifically*
yeah so anyway... the movie. was interesting, definitely... it's the portrayal of an ultimate dysfunctional family. the scary thing is that every member of this dysfunctional family has alot of power and influence behind them. so other people die fighting their wars. quite diao.
one thing i really didn't like about this show was JayChou was acting in it. okok i bet that didn't just defend all readers who are jaychou fans. don't get me wrong, his acting was good. yeah. come to think of it. =) but one part i really really hate is the fighting part. like, he's jaychou so he must be cool. when his entire army of 10 000 is down, he is the only one in the middle of the golden mess that stands up. and he can fight the father's army of dunno how many thousand or million and they can't take him down. and they gave about half a minute, maybe more, of screentime just showing him whirling around in slow motion and shouting. T_T like ok. this is the director's tribute to him for agreeing to act in the movie. ok... ok... ok fine can we move on???
and then there was the awesome heroic moment [oh if you haven't realised, this is kinda a spoiler btw] near the end where the father tells him he can be punished for treason by a terrible death, which he is willing to spare him of if he will agree to serve his mother poison everyday. and of course, rather than take the second option, he kills himself.
:) smiley.
and then there was the terribly irritating couple of the crown prince and some maidservant and they turned out to be siblings and both of them were killed in the end, not together of course, TRAGICALLY, but yeah. the moment she came on screen, and especially when she started rattling out more lines, i knew she was gonna die. i was waiting for it. i was rooting for it. so irritating. urgh.
and the ending was super crap diao.
:) smiley.
that's about all i have to say about the show. but other than the aforesaid parts, the show was quite interesting. i loved the elaborate gold stuff everywhere. whooooooo. shineeeyyy. i likeeee...
and now i'm going off the mope coz Wing's flown back to HK till 4th and i've a feeling i won't hear from him at all until some time then. *worries* well. chaoz friends.
SJC's skit thing was kinda much shorter than we'd expected. and david was having trouble talking with his braces xD. the stage was really so big, so big, and somehow they managed to fill it up as best they could. i'd kinda have to say i agree if someone said it was still raw, but one thing i have to say: these guys really put in so much effort into this thing.
checking my email today and i found this:
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ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson ....
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
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I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
Yes I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say
--These Things I'll Never Say by Avril Lavigne
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 09:38 a.m.:.
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.:Thursday, December 14, 2006:.
best buddies.
just came back from spending the day with my best friend dawn. really, it's kinda amazing, our friendship. alot of things that we'd never thought we'd be talking about came up today, but kinda proved a relief for both of us, coz this whole year that we've been apart and haven't been able to really talk, it's been stifling. i mean, even when she was in crescent and i was in rg, at least we were both still in Singapore, and after sch stuff could be arranged. now, she's like.... an ocean away. bottling everything inside because there's really no one else that we can talk to. so... it's really a big load off for both of us today. yeah.
sigh. i'm so glad she's back for a much longer time this time around. like she'll only be leaving for aussie in february. which is two months away. or is my math too terrible. sigh.
she looks super good la. i can only post a few pictures coz most of which i took i look super ugly next to her. hahahahaaa. yeah.
my photobucket account is taking ages to load. i wonder why. it was like that too the last time i wanted to upload chiangmai photos. then in the end i just gave up. xD
ok so looks like i'm not posting pictures after all. what's up with these stupid things conking up on me man.
LATER--
whoa you lucky poots. photobucket decided to start working again. ^^ so here are the nice pictures taken today!
my pretty pretty best friend. =D me spoiling the picture. the sky was nice after it rained at vivo. i didn't spoil this picture too badly i think. there was a pretty pretty rainbow! dawn saw it and said, "oh look, rainbow! rainbows appear on lucky days." i looked at my watch and said, "it's the 14th." and she started laughing at me. *lho*
but before i go to that part, i have to apologise to everyone. all my loves, so sorry for abandoning this blog, no matter how short a time it might be compared to some others. [no fingers pointed.] but yeah, been kinda busy [i'm sure you can all guess with what, or *ahem* who], but even on top of that, there's been other stuff going on. like there was this totally awesome class outing yesterday to east coast park which turned up with a whopping attendance of FIVE PEOPLE!! round of applause please!!!
hrm ok actually there were a few times that i wanted to update but everytime, halfway thru, the comp would hang, or the boys would want to take over the comp, or the photos wouldn't upload, or i'd just... run out of blogging mood.
so. so sorry.
well anyway. this afternoon during the short and useless time that i was in church for some camp comm meeting that never really took place, i was commented to amanda that Hide and Seek is a really really sad song. she agreed. coz she was the one who sent me the song. SAJC was using it for one of their dances during this year's rapture.
really beautiful song.
i love it. been listening to it on repeat one the whole day. and crying. *laughs* but y'all didn't need to know that i suppose. *shrug*
ok sorry guys i got a bit distracted by the mika nakashima video that started playing. *laughs*
anyway. when i asked, amanda said that what she got from the song was that it was about departure. but she didn't elaborate. i mean, everyone gets a bit shy talking about these things face to face and actually saying the words out right. so do i. that's why i'm replying her here =P
what i got from Hide and Seek... i got this image of someone's love breaking up with her or leaving her. in an empty room, and for another woman. all the emotions are displayed in the song, as well as in the tone and strength that she sings it in: confusion in the beginning, maybe even being caught off-guard. then comes denial: "this can't be happening", and a sort of pleading.. please say it isn't true. the feeling that the rest of the world has stopped, must stop, SHOULD stop, when something like this has happened to her, and grieve with her. but of course... it doesn't. the soft murmurs that fall from her lips as it begins to sink in. repetitive, drilling noise disorientate her.
but she was here first...
memories of the times they had together filling her mind, taking over, just as he had taken over her. if only those times had never ended, or if she could only find a way to replay them. how inconsiderate of him to possess every bit of her, and then leave her, empty, numb.
ANGER. protests and her hurt flowing through those words, furious but with desperation. she's fighting this! ...desperately, hopelessly.
BUT SHE WAS HERE FIRST!
so she uses what she has left, before it's all gone: anger, sarcasm. working hard to induce guilt.
"mm what you say
oh that you only meant well, well of course you did
mm what you say
mm that it's all for the best, of course it is
mm what you say
that IT'S JUST what we need, you decided this
mm what you say
what did SHE say?
it didn't work. she knew it wouldn't. in the end there's no choice left but for her to surrender. left behind to let her tears fall on the floor, lying alone in the empty, cold room. disoriented, shocked. a NUMB shell. fading...
into
emptiness....
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 09:39 p.m.:.
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.:Tuesday, December 5, 2006:.
chiangmai.
hahaha i thought it was chengmai until i got there and saw the block letters on top of customs.
anyway! just a note to all my loves... I'M BACK!!! Tadaimaaaaaaaa...
^_^ sorry no pictures coz 1. i'm too tired 2. i don't have any pictures anyway coz i didn't bring my phone there. yupz. ^^ spent quite alot of money coz i suck at bargaining, and... yeah... got thrown overboard during white-water rafting and got squashed between the raft and the boulder nearby... xD but of course it's not my ghost that's typing this, dont' worry.
anyway much thanks to loong + moca... ^_^ thanks friends. and enli: WHY'D YOU TAKE THE TAG-BOARD OFF YOUR BLOG??? =(( and yeah i agree with loong... we're here if you need to talk yupz? ^^
anyway pple chaoz and nitez. ^^ i think my sleeping problem has been cured, i woke at almost eleven this morning.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:36 p.m.:.
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.:Wednesday, November 29, 2006:.
off to chengmai.
hahahaa i know this thing has kinda been dead for awhile.. the tag-board as well.. thanks so much to enli, doggy.. ^_^
anyway yupz i'm off to chengmai with my family... don't worry, it's not going to be very long.. like.. till.. 4th. so that makes it... four days. xD what kind of holiday is this right? hahaha i have no idea! but well. hope we have fun. hope we come back in one piece... don't know how taking budget flights are gonna be like but somehow it sounds kinda scary. o_O
anyway all the rest of you take care kiez? cya when i get back. all my loves! here's a song for y'all ^^
Daughters by John Mayer
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
but she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it’s got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Ooh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now shes left
cleaning up the mess he made
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart
On behalf of every man
looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too.
just don't let them see you cry
i got some copyright infringement complaint thing from youtube. wth. i guess that means there'll be no more videos? and also the old ones won't work anymore, if they really do delete my account.
was just watching childhood videos again... yeah.. my dad says there's about thirty more tapes to go. the current one was taken when i was about three years old? got terribly depressed watching the three-year-old myself running around. don't ask why. i don't really wanna talk about it. but basically, i was kinda always playing by myself?
see Doggy, your mistress isn't GOING to be a loner. she's been a loner all along.
and since i'm replying tags, hello to friends joel pang + shaunald + elisa. ^_^ it's nice to see my blog's still visited. heh.
well anyway. today i kinda stayed at home mostly, but in the afternoon i went to play pool with wing at lucky plaza. i didn't know the mambo pool there closed down!! devastation. so played at the other place on the same level. yupz. xD it's a bit weird, like i'll be really really enthu about playing pool, but after a few games, you see me getting a bit xian liaoz. hahahaha..
hahahaa sth funny just happened. well. funny for me. my mom's kinda pissed off. coz of how i transfer my pictures from my phone, she wanted to scan and print sth... don't know what that was. but she ended up printing a picture from my card of wing drinking soya bean milk in the school canteen. *laughs head off*
i've been dressing cute the whole evening. tying two ponytails at either side of my head and wearing this kiddy nightgown with red rabbit prints all over it.
reminiscence. not always the happiest of things.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:45 p.m.:.
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.:Sunday, November 12, 2006:.
music: KT Tunstall - Black Horse and the Cherry Tree
this song is super dancy. talking about dancing, i went to watch Step Up with wing yesterday. hahaha. it was quite funny. at first we went to Vivo. was late, and then saw the queue and decided to go elsewhere. ended up in cineleisure. xD saw yuani! my exclassmate from nhps.
hahahaa there's this sudden influx of tags. cool. hello from me to enli, ian, ernest, shaunald. to dawn, i love you too gurl, take care, please. to loong, i don't get it T_T. to elisa my twin, NO IT DOESN'T WHAT ON EARTH *laughs*. to moca: DIAO.
picture time!
new haircut~
my fave pic from last night.
me and wing.
wing and me.
basically, it's all about the art of 自拍。
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:30 a.m.:.
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.:Friday, November 10, 2006:.
music: Tamia - Dance My Dreams
my phone bill is going to explode. *laughs* i spent one hour talking with dawn on the phone. and dawn's overseas in melbourne, for those of y'all who don't know.
freak, why does mozilla have a dictionary now???? oh dear.
but yeah. anyway. =) it was good to talk to her again. my best friend. i've been feeling quite far away from her for some time... like she's too busy to reply my emails and stuffs. yeah. =( but at least everytime we meet and talk on the phone, there's no difficulty holding conversation with each other. that is something that i'm always so scared about. but so far, thank God, it hasn't happened, and he has kept the both of us close to each other in that way.
yupz. well today. we were quite focussed in practicing for TSD group performance... started at about 1 plus, and then finished up at... 4pm? or was it 5? can't really remember. but yeah. around there. when we were expecting it to end like late late late. when shawn said late, i imagined like 10pm plus, like it had been for practicing for caged birds. xD theatre and drama is super hard man.
hahaha shaunald just asked about wing. reminds me of sth. today after our practice i hung around in the blackbox for sometime more, and denise saw my handphone wallpaper.. a picture that i'd taken of wing. then she asked, "rachel, is that choon wing?" then i was like "yeah".
she stared hard at me for awhile, and then bent to whisper to michelle, who was sitting in between us. i was like "T_T you can ask me you know" a moment before michelle exclaimed: "they're TOGETHER, friend!"
denise stared at me and kinda backed away. wth. hahahaa. i very scary meh.
anyway i took some coolio pictures during practice today!! lubblubb.
i really really like the reflection on the ground. i don't even know why there's a reflection on the ground. the floor's not even shiny. shawn vs janessa... showdown!! janessa's shoes. guess whose sexy legs?
answer: my darling DragonFriend shawn chua.
i don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all
this song brings back memories, to say the least. hahaha.
well anyway, i'm kinda rounding up now.. i'm glad at least this entry has some pictures for y'all to look at. =)
basically what happened was this: one or two of khoong's friends who had gone to the concert came up to her and asked if wing and i were together. when she told them "yes", they got a shock, and told her that the other day, they had seen him being really close with some hwachong girl.
so this morning after bible study with the others who were involved in the organising of the evan concert, she confronted him.
now this would actually be very very worrying, except for one important thing:
THAT GIRL WAS ME.
*laughs head off*
ok so generally the thing is that he finally managed to convince her that it was really me and she was like, "good, coz i was going to slap you". i mean, look at this:
- -khoong- -: just tht two of my frens who came for the concert one day asked if you guys were tog
- -khoong- -: then i said yea
krayle*_BELO: hahaa k
- -khoong- -: then they were like... 'HUH?!?! BUT I SAW HIM WITH THIS HWA CHONG GIRL?!?!"
krayle*_BELO: HAHAHAAAA
- -khoong- -: then i was like "!!!???!?!?! WHAT?!"
- -khoong- -: "IM GOING TO KILL CHOON WING"
- -khoong- -: hahah
krayle*_BELO: yayyness for hcjc pe shirts
krayle*_BELO: hahahahaaaa
- -khoong- -: you suck lah
- -khoong- -: lol
but yeah... although i'm very very tickled and amused by this incident, i'm also very very touched by khoong's concern and her support for me. xD Wing had better not try any funny john[ny]tucker crap.. but of course i know he won't. ^_^
super funny. but yeah, for those of you who were wondering why i have a hcjc pe shirt in my cupboard, i got joshua to get it for me. cost me seven bucks can. seven bucks. xD but i think the fun i had today was quite worth that. i was laughing like crazy and wing was just standing there looking at me and saying, "not funny lor. not funny lor."
but i think it's super funny lehhhh~~! and elisa my twin's super tickled too whoots~~
another thing that i find hilarious was Wing's reaction when we discovered that we both had a mole on our left arms, in almost the exact same spot. he went O________O "HUH??? I'M SURE, WHAT'S THIS??!?!??!!!" and kinda stared in shock. SUPER funny i tell you. xDD
well anyway, early morning start... got woken up at 8 plus... the clock in my room isn't working. stupid thing. it's stuck at 2.45 or sth like that. grah.
but yeah, went for breakfast with WaiLing at chuntin there... prata hahaaa. we just talked about stuff in general and then she took a video of me talking about my experience with the concert and stuff. yeah. she's gonna get one from samuel as well, probably. hahahaa.
it was good to catch up. =)
went home, and left almost immediately to go have lunch with my family. marcus made so much noise that in the end we went to pastamania [yeah there's a new outlet there] tho i was telling him it really wasn't worth it. there's some limited meatball pasta thing. not bad lehz. maybe it's just me and my weird taste again.
after that the boys went home coz martin had tuition while i stayed with dad and mom at the singtel shop. both of them were looking for new phones. coz dad has some yearly dunno how many hundred bucks worth of phone voucher to spend. yeah. sigh. i have my eye on sony ericsson's z610i... but of course my phone being rather new and stuff... yeah. can't. =( sad.
Wing came over to play today. hahahaa.. ok lahz not play. we both ending up reading 《真假茱莉叶》.. it's a manga, for those of you who don't know. well well.
see moca? CLEAN.
well anyway. sigh. i'm like super tired. going to sleep now. it's going to be a long day tmr.
i love You Lord
and i lift my voice
to worship You
oh my soul, rejoice
take joy, my King
in what You hear
may it be a sweet, sweet sound
in Your ear...
times of refreshing
here in Your presence
no greater blessing
than being with You
my soul is restored
my mind is renewed
there's no greater joy, Lord
than being with you...
yesterday's worship/prayer session thing was good. i think. i don't know. just so tired out today. and sick. coughing and sniffling... Wing's feeling guilty coz he passed it to me, but well. hahahaa. he tends to take too much upon himself. =)
anyway i don't know, nothing very much that i can blog about... just that today's TSD group meeting was quite... funny. like i was about an hour late coz some stuff came up, and then when we got there, there was like a dunno-how-long delay, before we managed to get the group-minus-one-member out of the black box and then shawn told us about what they'd decided for the costume and set design. yeah. and then after that they decided that there was nothing else we could do coz we didn't have the script there at present, so byebye, meeting adjourned.
o_O
but yeah. well. i'm not complaining.
so well, so sorry for the lack of pictures nowadays, friends, i'll try to remember to take more... but in the meantime, please do pray for me, to get well... and to be able to play for mom this song that she has to learn for Christmas... quite a sweet song, but she has some trouble with it.. yeah. well. and i'm like really tired and sick so please. thank you belly mach.
You said, ask and you will receive
whatever you need
You said, pray and I'll hear from heaven
and I'll heal your land
You said Your glory will fill the earth
like water the seas
You said, lift up your eyes
the harvest is here, the Kingdom is near
You said, ask and I'll give the nations to you
o Lord, that's the cry of my heart
distant shores and the islands will see
Your light, as it rises on us.
LATER--
i decided to look thru people's friendster pictures.
i shouldn't have.
now i miss everyone so damn much it hurts. the name of the file their pictures go under is BELOVED. but they're too far away now to know, some further than others.
did you hear that? Dawn? Lionel? can you hear the bloody screams fighting out from inside me? my whole body hurts with trying to keep them in. can you remember me? can you remember us?
i miss you so bad.
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
Hunting you I can smell you - alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me, raping me, watching me
Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you... loving you
I won't let you pull me down
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 07:48 p.m.:.
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.:Wednesday, November 1, 2006:.
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
only just visited ben's blog. he blogged quite a bit about his experience in the concert stuff, which my blog doesn't have nearly enough about. reading his posts really really touched me... so i have to say a big THANK YOU!! to ben for really caring so much and being so concerned. i really do appreciate it. thank God for you.
martin's really sick of the song Coin-Operated Boy. i put it on repeat-one *laughs* well. i better stop listening to it also lahz.
who can memorise the song Forbidden Love on the piano? it looks simple but somehow i can't really get it.
replying to tags! so that people won't need to continue reading below and have their days spoilt.
to mich: hahahaaa it's nice to know the real spellings. xD i loveya too. ^_^ though since when did i say you were a stalker????
to moca: hahaaa... always so frank and blunt. *laughs* i must admit i feel a bit insulted at times but i fight the feeling back because honesty is always refreshing. though your comments are always always always subject to your prejudices LOL.
to loong: thanks for the, erm, spam (??) xD and thank you Doggy. for the rose with my name and the metal guitar pick you knew i liked and the spiritual encouragements and the big hug this morning that you have no idea how much i needed... basically, thank you for your friendship, and also your prayers. my brother.
to ally + abby: hahahaa.. i don't really know what to say. thank you, again and again, for your friendship, for your support. always.
also wanna say a thank you to tim for listening to me and kinda counselling me when he sent me home after worship prac last night... yeah. it helped.
yesterday... started out well. but later, turned into a nightmare. second day since officially getting together with Wing and suddenly all the pressures rushed in and tried to smother us. as if the floodgates had been opened. pandora's box opened.
i don't want to comment any further. Afraid... i think that's my present state, along with Tired. i was hoping for support of sorts from my parents but now i don't dare...
if you happen to be reading this, i know you're still sure about what i have to do. i know you think this is wrong, wrong, wrong. i respect your opinion, i admire your conviction. but there are alot of things that i wasn't able to put into words yesterday evening, and i just let you come at me like a battering ram, but my firm stand is that if this wasn't in God's plan, somehow, He would NEVER, EVER, EVER have let this happen. haha... i bet you're shaking your head at the computer now. *shrug* i don't know. i really don't know how to show you... people say i wield the english language well, in essays and lit and stuff, but quite some time ago, i lost grasp of my vocabulary when it comes to vocalising my personal emotions and what i feel. unstable, perhaps. fooling myself, perhaps. what i can promise you is that i will NEVER, EVER, EVER let go of Him, NEVER, EVER, EVER let go of Jesus. i hope you won't blame yourself for this... it wasn't coincidence that it slipped by you, and all the other stuff that you feel guilty for... all your regrets that you told me yesterday, i feel there are too many for it to be easily dismissed as coincidence or mistakes or whatever. adults often underestimate youths... we both know this is a serious problem that will have to be resolved as soon as possible. we know that. for us, we have committed this into God's hands and there's no taking it back. so i hope that even if i haven't let your understand my viewpoint, at least to let you know if you really want to help, pray for me. pray for US. pray to God that His sovereign will be done through this mistake, as you view it. and i thank you.
i don't know what you're thinking of me now. 'Hypocrite' ? perhaps. i wouldn't blame you if you did. i was never good at speaking about things like this. i'm sorry.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 02:28 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, October 30, 2006:.
music: Dresden Dolls - Coin-Operated Boy
wah. this is the sad song thing that shawn dragonfriend used for his TSD indiv. puppetry. doesn't really affect me as much now.
i've been sleeping late and waking up really early. i don't know why. just can't continue to sleep. keep waking up at ridiculously early times and can't go back to sleep. it's super irritating.
THIS IS WHAT SCHOOL HAS FREAKING DONE TO MEEE!!
so anyway this time i left my mp3 on the entire night. the music really does help. though sometimes it worsens the situation. like my mind can't rest coz it's following the lyrics or whatever. but yeah. generally it helps. i <3 music.
ANYWAY!!! gear yourself up for lotsalotsa pictures [i think lots of comps will hang] heh. hopefully i'll still have the strength to add explanations and stuff. xD
ready?? let's go!! whoosh.
diao.
Sunday 8th
this was the Sunday that aunty karfoon let us play the roll-a-role game. i think the name is damn corny but some really funny stuff happened. i'm a bit too lazy to upload the videos so just tell you what happened. i think nathaniel and tim's one was the worst. nathaniel was supposed to be some blind person talking on the phone to tim, whose role was a single girl. WAHAHAA. and tim was supposed to be convincing nat to go to church.
so. already with a married mentor having to pose as a single girl, it was funny enough. then nat had to go forget that he was supposed to be blind.
tim: so why don't you go to church?
nat: aiyah no time la.
tim: oh... what do you do in your free time?
nat: i eat.
tim: anything else?
nat: i watch TV.
my goodness. xD
an attempt at an arty picture. the four pflug brothers walking together. it was super cute. hahahaa. brotherhood!! actually this was taken more for mich. not like you can see their faces, actually. paul's prank on the kindergarteners that were inside the music room downstairs. basically if you can't see, that's all the shoes that were outside the room, and he formed them into a cross. *laughs* it was crazy. random car. but hello??? who puts YAKULT signs on their car? someone was with me when i took it, was it martin or shaunald? but basically the owners were walking back and shouted at us. then we ran lol.
Monday 9th
i don't really remember what happened but from the pictures i deduce that we were practicing for openhouse performance after sch... or was it during the three-hour break? yeah i think it was that.
pictures of the lovely grand piano in LT2. and a slacking weiren. random picture. L!
Tuesday 10th
this tuesday practical was used for planning how to advertise for TSD during openhouse. isaac and i found ourselves without our acting partners so we put our heads together and decided that there was nothing we could do for acting. coz it was the basics. and coz we were tired and sleepy and lazy to really think of anything. xD so for awhile we joined the costumes people, ally and jenny. ally was in the random mermaid pose.
Thursday 12th
can't really remmeber what happened here... but i think our family went to swensons for ice cream at night... sth like that. yupz. and on the way back we realised that the three of us were wearing army-print clothes. check it out.
Friday 13th
OPENHOUSE DAY!!! not bad lahz. was so tired of waiting around. but the performances were good, both of them. we had a last minute song that we NEVER practiced throughout the rest of the weeks and that moca decided on the night before. Boston. but it went so well. ^^
i don't have any pictures of the performance, but i do have evidence of vandalism on one of the LT2 tables...:
and also one of dexter kor on the banners around school:
Sunday 15th
this was our trip to the Bird Park day. i didn't know the entrance fees were so freaking expensive 16 bucks what on earth i called shawn and he like shouted at me to stop kidding.
but it was quite fun lahz, though tiring to hike all over the place, shawn leading with his japanese map. *laughs* super funny. and we got our money's worth, i think, considering we really visited EVERYTHING, and got quite alot out of the physicality and behaviours of the birds that we needed for our characters. ^^ yupz.
cute lil puffins. they were at the penguin gallery though. o_O afro birds. whoots. bird haven. so pretty. but it stunk there. don't ask me what's this random picture. this is a nice picture of a zen-looking stone in the middle of a murky river. it has moss all over it. quite cool lehz. at least to me. the directors, shawn, janessa, yingzi forgot where exactly this was, but there was this reptile sitting plonk in the middle of the path and we didn't really know what to do. however seema, as you can see, happily started snapping pictures of it. this was at the dunno what place lahz. the one with ice cream. =) i was kinda tired alrdy, so didn't go down. the owl place is super cool. but there was hardly any lighting, so even in night-mode, this was the best picture i got. you can kinda see the bird and the tree here too la. random scary-looking tree. shawn, tired out and asleep on the train. his posture looked so painful. yilun and seema were walking their fingers on his back. heh. again i'm wondering whether i should put the video up. again my laziness wins. welcome to... *drumroll* THE BRINJAL CLUB!!
it was unintentional. well.
this is still Sunday. went over to khoong's place. basically the three of us, khoong + wing + me planned to stayover, do the script, and then go to sch together tmr. heh. i have no idea what they're looking at but yeah. wing likes to play with the stuffed toys. it's the happy pooh family picture! ^^
Tuesday 17th
i call this water vandalism day in my mind. wenloong kept playing with water. in GP he stabbed his water bottle [with my penknife] and was squirting it all over the place.
my name. RAC, if you can see. then when he ran out of water and threw his bottle away, he used mine instead. those are his legs. he was waiting to ambush sophia, who was in the girls' toilet. also have a video here. wahaa. i just might upload them afterwards. depending.
Wednesday 18th
i remember what happened. i skipped school to rest. and mom brought me down to the wake. my great-grandmother's wake. don't know what you guys will think of this, but i just felt like taking a picture.
don't ask me what the bottle is there for.
Thursday 19th
i remember what happened this day also. it was the one where wing and i were practicing for the concert. practicing the mushy Chasing Cars / Yellow scene. erm. ... ... ...
and i only noticed then the power socket at the ceiling. playing Game of Life with mich + jenn [is that how you spell it?] and tara. started off with the lousiest pay and stuff but in the end i think i was the richest. heh. i realise life is really like that. things tend to go your way when you don't care too much. and vice versa. don't ask me what ally was doing. mich and ally. i just realised it looks kinda bad, but yeah. scream if you want me to put it down. jeannifer!!! she's such a dear.
Friday 20th
class lunch outing to s11. xD
nopez, loong is actually on his own feet and not being piggy-backed.
Evan Concert
not like i actually had time to take alot of pictures or anything [none at all of myself, sadly] but yeah. heh. it was great fun. ^^
i decided to elaborate more.
I MESSED UP SO BADLY!!!
like the first part, i kept forgetting things and lines and whatnot and it was XIAO things kept going wrong, but somehow, which was only possible with God's grace, everything worked out. thank God. thank God.
the mass of stuff when we went to Great World City macs for supper that night. hahaha... actually it was quite a coincidental choice. guoren's parents happened to be there as well, watching movie. and then, i found out awhile later, so were mine! o_O
wah it's already 11 don't know whether i have time to continue... hrmz. maybe later!
chaoz for now.
LATER--
WARNING: scary pictures ahead. xD
just before i start on all the stuff about the performance again, i just wanna say that Deathnote the movie wasn't really worth the seven bucks i paid for it today. though i had fun. =) i hope the sequel's better.
Caged Birds performance
tired out during one of the performance rehearsals... the date this pic was taken of me and ally is the 24th. the morning after the evan concert... gee i feel damn tired just thinking about it. chiawyee and i on the first night of production, 26th. this picture is damn scary. it somehow looks like my head is coming out from the wall. this is how the side view looks like. second night! yingzi darling added the red stuff below my eyes. which was super scary, mich said after. yilun, acting as the Wild One. another horror pic. in the girls' toilet after that night's performance. i messed up so badly. third and last night of production! i took alot of pictures. that's mich, and yingzi doing jeannifer's makeup. chiawyee posing for ally's camera. amazingly, my camera caught the flash. xD a, erm, Wild pose? this is definitely an indian pose. ^^ <33 vani dearest. this is vani close up. hope you can see the makeup. more of chiawyee, the sexy scary lady in red. it looks like she's doing an advertisement for the waterbottle. tamara!! [hope i spelt that name right] she just reminds me so much of chunen, though more sober and sane than my neighbour, and she has that typical MG girl look about her. so sweet. ^^ ally. yingzi doing seema's makeup. exclusively yingzi. such a darling. ^^ yilun and janessa working on mich's makeup. if you look closely she's giving a V sign to the camera. xD ally again. why did i upload this pic??? vani and chiawyee. ^^ lovelies. more tamara. she was avoiding my camera.
post-performance saturday night!!
really just wanna say a big thank you to all my wonderful classmates... and i'm sure mich and ally won't mind if i say it on their behalf as well. we realised that really almost all of 07A01D came down on various nights to support. and the guys that came on saturday night each gave a flower each. how sweet is that?? there's a picture of the flowers later. xD then after we'd washed up, they headed to j8's cafe cartel to eat some stuff and hang.
nivi dear. ^^ these two are acting gay forever and ever amen. but of course we all know that loong is perfectly straight and aaron loves his girlfriend to bits. wahahahaa. the guys that were there that night, minus moca. a picture of the flowers, as promised. of course this was taken the next day when they'd been taken out of the silver wrappers and put into a vase. ^^ lovely. i especially like the one that loong gave because he took the effort to write my name on it. of course he did the same for mich and ally's. ^^
and so we're on to Sunday. yesterday.
didn't go for YE coz they were having games and i was kinda worn out, so had to go for main service, which was seemingly supposed to be family service. but the sermon was SO not for family, it was for parents, at the most. so of course i was bored to death and started taking pictures of random things like this. i took this during prayer while everyone's eyes were closed. it's a picture of the back of the pew i was sitting behind. see the little girl's feet? it's supposed to be freaky, but i tried it on moca, he said the chinese bible there scared him more. diao lol.
dinner at surf-n-turf at suntec with Wing darling. it was a fierce battle between us and the food. resorted to playing with it. this is a face. two deep fried mushroom starters and a fry. then it got a bit more complicated. long beans for eyebrows, cauliflower for the nose, and tomato for the tongue. so it's like this: >:-P the fountain. i wonder what you guys would give to know what happened there.
well anyway. enjoy. =)
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 09:56 a.m.:.
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.:Sunday, October 29, 2006:.
music: Chris Tomlin - Indescribable
you know what guys? i know that i promised i'd get an entry up like soon and i was meaning for today but there were just too many pictures and i just finished uploading them all onto my photobucket account and wondering whether i should upload the videos onto youtube but i'm just so deadbeat that i decided i shall just take a rest and continue either later or tomorrow. so byebye.
anyway fellas the cbox is up... i decided that it was stupid to trust tag-board coz it keeps crashing. so yes, please do tag... always love getting notes from friends. ^_^
my Beloved is mine and i am His
His banner over me is Love
this has been ringing in my head since ... well. since my great-grandmother's funeral. it came to me when we were in the viewing hall.. which to me is the room of overwhelming grief. maybe 21st october is the day of overwhelming grief. am i talking crap here? three years ago......... well.
but on that day, i know i wasn't crying out of grief for my great-grandmother's death. she was a believer, so, i knew for certain she was in the Happy Place. she's one of the people who have lived a full life of loving and being loved. maybe there was a bit of envy in my tears. haha. but well. i think, it was mostly from the pain of those others around me, for my mom and my aunt, but especially for the non-believers who didn't know where she was going, they just knew that she'd left them.
but yeah... "My Beloved is mine and I am His; His banner over me is Love". am i the only one who feels security from that sentence??
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 12:01 p.m.:.
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.:Wednesday, October 25, 2006:.
you make me smile stupidly.
it's 10.30pm and i just bathed.. hahaha.. so busy watching videos that my father took all those years back when we were children. so cute! but so embarrassing argh!!! these videos are NEVER leaving these four walls! hahahahaa..
well, today is a happy day, even though i was so tired... slept in the blue room in the morning, slept in the library till 10 plus after telling the teacher i wouldn't be taking PE, and then always dozing off while people were doing makeup for us. hahaha. well well.
Caged Birds production tmr!! i really hope that all the messed up parts come together in time. yupz.
it's a really happy day. i have nothing else to say.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:27 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, October 23, 2006:.
music: Tracy Chapman - Fast Car
super super super nervous now. it will wear off later and then come back again just before the performance. i'm here coz i just felt like saying hi to all my loves, and yeah.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 08:41 a.m.:.
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.:Sunday, October 22, 2006:.
music: Folder5 - Believe [One Piece opening song]
hrmz. i realised that there's really really alot of stuff that i wanna blog about and show you guys all the pictures that i took... but there's really really no time... shucks lahz... i promise, after next week. ok? ok. love you all loads.
niwaez just got back, just washed up, and am kinda blogging and journaling at the same time. finished getting back results... but shan't talk about it. just thank God for great mercies and the grace that is new every morning.
well. so peeps the tag-board is down and i'm really sorry if y'all are burning to say something to me thru that but i'm really too tired to go search for another tag-board just yet... sigh... this haze is terrible i tell you. disgusting. *thump voice*
and Threesome tickets are all sold out. including the priority tickets that all cast members were supposed to have. my parents wanted to come. shucks lahz.
wellwell. ^_^
mylyon made some of us show-and-tell our indiv practicals... heh.. everyone's like really good... i especially loved zhengjie's and shawn's... omg, shawn's made me cry lahz... ally thinks i'm really weird now. but i really really really loved it. sigh.
Coin-Operated Boy.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:01 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, October 16, 2006:.
deathnote.
you know. my motto BOREDOM KILLS is proven true by this manga/anime series. they should have said in the advertisement for the movie:
TO ALL THE BORED ONES OUT THERE.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:45 p.m.:.
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.:Thursday, October 12, 2006:.
confused about how as well.
singing singing singing and acting acting acting. wah. would like to see who else has it worse or the same, even. rushing from one corner of Singapore to the other, and then another.
i'm in a whiny mood. and tag-board is down. AGAIN.
i don't really feel like blogging today actually. just felt like typing something. like this urge to scream I'M STILL HERE... maybe one last time... i don't know. i'm getting a sore-throat. if i really do, i won't be the only one who's gonna get worried and displeased.
if the plane goes down, damn
well i'll remember where the love was found...
actually i think i've kinda forgotten already. the word that comes to mind is: "grappling".
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:18 p.m.:.
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.:Tuesday, October 10, 2006:.
wordy wordy wordy deathnote.
i was blogging just now, and then my father interrupted me to do his dunno-what email, and when i got back, the computer wasn't working. go and die.
*whines* why does deathnote have to be so terribly hard to readddd!!!!!!! URGH. and they killed off the most kawai character halfway thru WTH.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:59 p.m.:.
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.:Tuesday, October 10, 2006:.
wordy, wordy, wordy deathnote.
GAHHHH. it's so hard to read Deathnote. coz it's so wordy. and even though it's not like i have a problem understanding, it's just that i have a problem forcing myself to read all the small chinese print that is going on and on about... i don't know. i mean, it's all relevant... but... a bit too much.
bleh.
life kinda sucks right now. like i said before, part of me enjoys the bustle, but most of me, the slacker me that has taken over the better part of me, is really hating this.
and braces SUCK.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:09 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, October 9, 2006:.
animals and children tell the truth, they never lie.
sigh. i'm only online coz i'm cooling my tongue from the chilli instant noodles. mee goreng... why on earth people enjoy eating chilli other sweet chilli, i don't really know. just makes your mouth burn and makes you unable to taste anything at all.
i believe chilli-eaters are at least part masochist.
like aunty edna before. she'd eat until she teared and her nose ran and she got diarrhoea and got stuck in the toilet for soooo long, but she still REFUSED to do without chilli. STRONG chilli. xiao.
i was thinking about her just now. coz i was wearing these shorts of mine that are quite old... and anyone would mistake them for boxers i think, considering the checkered pattern on them and stuff. but i was thinking about this time when i was watching her sort the clothes for ironing... then she held up some shorts... and i know you peeps will probably be like "huh wth is krayle babbling about now." coz it's more of how she said it, the sound can't be transmitted to you thru written [or typed] words, no matter how much i wish i could convey this to you..
basically she held it up and she went, "ooh, these shorts are so special, they look like boxers!"
hahahahahahahaaa....
ok, see what i mean? now you all think i'm a retard. hahahahahahaa. nevermind.
ok i think i'll go finish up my peppered soup. heheh. i like soup.
what exactly is the power in a word? espcially, in a name?
who is to decide who is LOVELESS, and who is BELOVED?
not merely in the sense of the name, but of the word itself.
talking about disappointment in... people in general... friends... your faith in mankind... shouldn't have expectations of others, because everything will disappoint you. except God, of course. but what do you do then, when even He seems to have abandoned you? what do you do then, die? or keep on trying? what CAN you do? except die, or keep on trying...
am i making sense?
i guess not.
sorry, i just need to get this out of my system. untangling, you understand.
i can't really help it if you don't.
Paul asked me today at dinner... if i had a choice to eradicate all hunger and need to eat, for myself, but only at the cost of not being to enjoy the pleasures of eating anymore... would i choose to do it?
and i'll reply with aly's character in CagedBirds' line:
I DON'T KNOW, I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
though if you asked me the same thing about love... i don't konw. that word's so over-used... it's so cliched... it has all these connotations... that never do it justice. the emotion. it doesn't even really restrict its meaning to romantic emotions, friendships, family... it's also called love. how exactly do you describe this emotion? it's bittersweet, exciting, boring, overwhelming, satisfying... but somehow the most recurring feeling it causes is pain.
what would you do, if faced with that decision to make... choose never to hunger for love again, never to love again, never have to suffer the disappointment of zero reciprocation, but never know the joy of loving and being loved again? many of you, you'll tell me a NO. i don't care what you tell me, really. you know the truth of your own emotions, i suppose. assuming that i'm the only one who is confused by my own.
a few of the last lines from Sindhura's monologue, which i unintentionally memorised...
I want to shout at her: Where is the horror? Why aren't you making me feel sad? I want to hear how you suffered. Your tales of woe. And yet, your occupation is this:
Loving, and being loved...
Loving, and being loved......
and with that i sign off for tonight, the loveless beloved.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:14 p.m.:.
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.:Friday, October 6, 2006:.
music: Mika Nakashima - Oborozukiyo ~inori~
thank God for people like joel pang. been looking for this song EVERYWHERE but all the links i found on rotation sites are all dead and whatnot.
well anyway. it seems that now, after promos, i'm even busier. and that does NOT suit me. I AM SLACKER, I DON'T DO RUNNING AROUND PREPARING FOR EVENTS THINGS!
well. sometimes its fun to complain about being tired. but sometimes, it's just plain tiring.
yayyy.... Plane! by Jason Mraz! whoots whoots. singing it for openhouse. jishun's singing How to save a life and Accidentally in love.... so whoever wants to come down, please do. ask moca for the time slot, i don't know.
gah. there's still the worship on this sunday. not nearly done preparing. howhowhow. shall go prepare now.
and then my braces rubberbands keep snapping and hitting my upper lip. it HURTS.
and then on the mrt back. OMG. kill me. i cannot stand crowds. especially not when i'm tired and my mp3 battery has decided to die on me and i don't have a spare. this old woman.... i don't know what on earth she's doing, but she HAD to snake her arm arnd to hold on that particular pole that i was standing near and then she kept brushing her arm against mine! i was like *F**** and shifted away, but you know these kinda people, always 得寸进尺. literally. so soon i was practically curled against the door and she was STILL touching me.
for those of you who don't yet know, crowds piss me off. people not respecting my private space, regardless of crowds or not, piss me off even more.
i mean, ok, there was this thought that popped into my mind: love your neighbour as yourself. i guess i was too pissed off to be obedient just then, though that is no excuse i know, it's like: hello auntie, i know your skin very smooth, whatever, ok, 请你不要碰我可以吗？ 尤其是当我已经很累，很烦。
*screams* this was such a terribly trying day.
YOU WILL NOT WIN ME!!!! YOU HEAR!!!! YOU HEAR?!??!! I DON'T CARE!!!!!!! YOU WILL NOT WIN ME!!!!!! *brandishes pride*
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:13 p.m.:.
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.:Tuesday, October 3, 2006:.
TSD TSD TSD.
yupz. hahahaa. it's over, for me at least. thanks so much to those who helped me. ^_^
have lotsa pictures whoots~!!
i think aaron's gonna kill me for these. pls don't tell him. >_< yeah. i didn't get a very good angle... O__O random butterfly that was at the bus stop outside my school. i think it was dead. this is a very pretty picture. ^^ marcus's stuffed Oddish. here's a close-up. these were from Sunday.. heh... otanjoubi omedetou! bella's really really amused by this door. heh. it's some armoury room that we came across at the carpark there when we were walking out of school together the other day. hahahaha. she was like "aiyoh. how come lock until like that!" then i said "maybe got monster inside." then she was tickled by the idea.. hahaha! you should see her laugh. no. actually. you should have seen her today: so cute eh? ahaha.
anyway... meet *drumroll* *cymbals crash* jenny's portia of kabuki theatre!!
er, yeah. if you didn't realise, that's isaac. jenny almost gave him boobies as well... but... she didn't. ahhahaa. isaac was like: "oh, my mom's gonna be so proud of me." and then. that jenny went to leave the padded boob cups all over the place. T_T it was horrifying. there, one of them is on isaac's head, and the other on zhengjie's but you can't see it coz of the angle. this is supposed to be some pozzo&lucky pose i think.. hahaha.. it's our studied text for this year. funn stuff. it... IS kinda... ermz... kinkyish... but.. well.
and now, the thing that will shock everyone out of their chairs....
THIS PICTURE IS GOING DOWN TOMORROW! TOMORROW, YOU HEAR!! TOMORROW!!!
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:19 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, October 2, 2006:.
*traumatised*
i almost put a smiley XD face in my critical commentary. *horrified look*
Tragicomedy (or dark comedy or black comedy) refers to fictional works that blend aspects of the genres of tragedy and comedy. In English literature from Shakespeare's time to the nineteenth century, tragicomedy refers to a serious play with a happy ending.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
just taking a little break from Critical Commentary. that thing is.... crazy.
well niwaez. first thing i thought when i heard this song [the original, of course, which happened after smallville today, not jonathanleong's version]... well niwaez the first thing i thought when i heard this song was to imagine Keary singing this to Cardin.
awwww.... *heart glows*
much love to our alter-egos. especially mine. why can't i not study and be smart like you?
wait. what am i talking about again?
LATER--[12.43 am]
surely you guys are able to guess at the suffering that going on over here, that i come back on to blog again. sigh. the Critical Commentary is really driving me crazy. oh sorry, did i say that already?
feel like letting loose. not pee. screams. like during econs i got so frustrated and then when i decided to just go to sleep, i was wondering what they'd do to me if i just started screaming. in sec two my classmate told me this story about another girl in another school who started screaming during this really hard math paper and throwing her stationary [did i spell that right?] at the examiner screaming, "I DON'T WANT TO DO! I DON'T WANT TO DO!! IT'S TOO HARD, I DON'T WANT TO DO!!!" or sth to that.
guess what happened to her?
she was brought down to the principal's office.... and was seated there... and was allowed to do her paper there after being given oreos and milk. XD
don't really know whether it happened, but it seems like it's true. it's another of those somebody's friend's friend kinda situation.
niwaez. Keary and Cardin aren't getting outta my head... they like to visit when i'm at my busiest. so. here's a little bit of them.
WARNING: not alot of Cardin and alot of morbidity.
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Keary
Not only children are afraid of the dark.
Not only old men are frail.
Far too often, youths stumble and fall. But for them there is no excuse, there is no pardon, there is no refuge.
For them, there is no forgiveness.
~
Conceived by the night, I gather darkness around me like a cloak, a cloak that does not give me warmth but takes it, out of my body, my heart, turning me into ice and stone, cold and untouchable. With it I shroud my thoughts and feelings. It was my shield.
Until I tried to lower it, resist. Only then did I discover it had already tightened around my neck, smiling friend turned snarling foe, a noose of horror, never to relinquish its grip until the end.
That is when I began to fear the night. I, who am made of the very substance of dark, fear it. Beneath closed eyes I am running, a desperate, hopeless race. But the darkness overcomes, it always overcomes, reaching out and gripping me with strong fingers of ice that chill marrow and soul. Struggling is futile—the dark is too strong, and I, too weak. Only one can save me—the angel that glitters gold.
But I will not place my hopes, my trust, in this golden angel of light. It has never come for me before, I dare not hope it will come for me now, or ever.
So when the angel finally came, I had already begun to fade…
~
Blood spewed from where the blade had pierced his throat, instead of the pleas for mercy. His eyes rolled back in his head, as his lifeblood gushed out with every beat of his heart. I watched my victim die, feeling no emotion whatsoever. All this was so senseless. Why did I even bother to do these things, kill these people. What had this guy done to me again? I couldn’t quite remember.
I retrieved the switchblade from the spasming corpse and offered it handle out to the girl kneeling nearby, tears and a look of horror on her face. When she didn’t take it, I let it drop to the floor of the alley, hands bloody.
“It was just some money,” she whispered, her dark hair veiling half her face. “He was just trying to survive.”
“And he failed to,” I answered coldly, “Because he was pathetic, weak, and stupid enough to cross us.”
She made a sound that might have been a laugh or a sob. “Killing so casually—”
“If you can’t do it, just say so and get out. We have no need for weakness.” I did up the front of my trench coat and stuffed my stained hands into my pockets. I stepped past the rest of my gang, out of the alley, into the cold night.
After I was well away from them, I lost sense of my purpose, and wandered around aimlessly. It was snowing, and numbingly freezing, but I couldn’t care any bit less. When your body is numb, and it every step you take hurts, it gives a strange sense of being dead and alive at the same time.
It was late, and there was absolutely no one around. My gang had not dared to follow. I took my hands out of my pockets and stared at the rust-coloured blood stains. Why I am doing all this? Leading this life of crime… all for what? I certainly didn’t want to be caught. To protect myself? Couldn’t be. I couldn’t even recall what it was this last fellow had done to cross me.
I looked across at the field of snow before me, then started to cross it. Either way, he was lucky. By killing him, I had released him from this misery.
If only someone would come and take me away from here too…
Trudging along in the whiteness, I suddenly stepped on something that felt nothing like snow. More like a body. Startled, I quickly shifted my weight, and slipped, falling into pure coolness.
“Dammit!” Snow showered from my hair as I shook my head angrily, looking around to see who the hell was stupid enough to sleep outdoors in winter.
At first I couldn’t tell whether my roadblock was girl, boy or wingless angel. Bright hair framed its beautiful face, and its skin was as white as the snow it was surrounded in. And something about it had in some strange way captivated me, drawing me to it.
This wasn’t good. I cursed. “Kid! Wakeup! What the hell…” It didn’t budge.
NOW what was I to do? I had tried to rouse it. Was it alive, even? And somehow, I just couldn’t bring myself to walk away. How unlike me.
I cursed again, then moved to pick it up, sliding my arms below its body. It opened blue eyes and looked at me, weak and confused.
“Have you come to claim me, Shinigami-sama…?”
Shinigami-sama? I grimaced. So it was human after all. And male.
Suddenly he stiffened in my arms, back arching. A shudder ran through his body, and I realised my hands were once more wet with warm blood, flowing from a gash in his arm.
That settled things. “I’m taking you to the hospital,” I told him, not even sure if he could hear me. Great! Then I could leave him there to wake up and wonder. Problem solved…
But it wasn’t so easy. “No!” he cried, and started to struggle feebly. “I can’t…”
I bit back a retort as he went limp again. Fine. Whatever. I wasn’t too keen on answering questions about my particulars anyway.
So that left only one other place to go…
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yupz that's it for that bit of morbidity. i better put a warning before it. there. yupz. see ya people arnd. still have to work on this shit... grah. feedback welcome.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:54 p.m.:.
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.:Thursday, September 28, 2006:.
erps.
to wenloong: ok now you got me lost as well. WHAT are you talking about?
my mom switched on the tv today to the Opra show. talking about... i don't know. letting go of some part of yourself. but basically, they were talking about feeling invisible at that particular point in the show.
which is exactly how i felt today.
LATER--
really frustrating coz i've run out of inspiration again. SIGH. wth.... it always comes when i'm most stressed out by exams, when i don't have time to write. wtf. and today's papers went really badly lahz. like really... the first two essays weren't that bad. i am quite proud of the notes that i made on the exam script. but my last essay, the one for heartofdarkness, was just scruuuuuuuud. f lahz. i started out doing question b. then halfway down the page i changed to the first one... so blended in. then one more quarter down that page, i switched back to question b. WTF. win alrdy lahz. then, even better, i ended in the mid-sentence. wait. the best part was that i ended mid-word. 'colonia'. wth. the only logical explanation is that it will end up being the word 'colonialism' and i have no fing idea why the f i was writing about colonialism. f lahz. ffffffffffffffffffffffffffff OH SHIT I HAVEN'T HAD MY DAILY DOSE OF FFAC YET.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 08:21 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, September 25, 2006:.
josh groban - You raise me up
im here for a breath of air and a stretch. just finished my two hour econs crash course. jon & josh's aunty alma is one serious powerhouse of a small-sized lady. i might even be able to get an S for tmr's paper.
it's always just a possibility tho. sigh. wah. two hours straight, with her talking all the time. and i have to pay attention because she's going so quickly and she speaks in a way that she expects me to complete her sentences [even words!] for her at times.
but i'm glad she came. and i thank God for her.
anyone need econs or GP tuition? im sure there's more but she seems to specialise in these two subjects.
oh no wait, i got that wrong: she specializes in feeding peking ducks... who are fed and fattened just before they're sent to for slaughter. in other words, the metaphor stands for crash course.
i shouldn't hunch so much. my organs feel crushed together now.
i wonder who won in the end, whether my parents sent her back in the end, or whether she got her way and walked to the mrt station herself, or whether they got a compromise and they sent her to the mrt.
well ok. i forgot to put the timer on. prob won't be blogging for a long time more, till exams are over. yep. see ya peeps, all the best, God bless. ^_^
You raise me up so i can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
i am strong when i am on Your shoulders
You raise me up to more than i can be.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 10:39 p.m.:.
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.:Friday, September 22, 2006:.
music: Sairin: Kata Tsubasa no Tenshi ^Advent: One-Winged Angel^
=) *obsesses* but i didn't manage to watch it today. i spent the better part of the day after coming home from school lazing around, kinda. fell asleep for half an hour and then woke up to find the tv had been switched off. panicked because i thought i missed the episode of saiyuki reload on Animax. but yeah. didn't.
when i finally got down to trying to study, i actually managed to get all the way from the beginning to pg155 of Othello. not bad for quantity, i'd guess, for like an hour and a half before dinner... with many breaks in between to play Aerith's them on the piano.
i'm like hungry. and my teeth hurt from the tightening of the braces.
but y'all damn lucky that Dawn my best buddy called me lahz. after watching today's Smallville i was like damn emo, and totally ready to come here and angst. XD you lucky people. the phone call brightened me up ALOT and now, i'm back in contro. WHOOTS~
Praise to the Lord, the Almighty, the King of creation...
things like to crash on me when i most want to use them.
like last night i wanted to tell y'all about this great wonderful fun new game me and martin came up with. [heck the bad english grammar] he was eating those marks and spencer fruit gums and i was guessing their flavours from the smell of his breath. XD damn funny.
ok ok now back to my critical commentary. it's damn hard to squeeze formal words out when there're a hundred new ideas for Seizure whirling in my head.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:57 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, September 18, 2006:.
loong: i look like crap in the pic. lol. worse than normal. and thanks ah. dirty old man ish. i feel loved.
my reply: HAHAA. totally~ aww... BUT IT'S TRUE.
niwaez i'm really happy coz while i was at school today martin re-installed everything.. or, almost everything that should be in the computer... sigh. i hate this. why does the stupid computer have to spoil all the time....
blah. but niwaez. XD
moca, don't worry kiez. XD saturday night was very cheering for me, even though we stayed in church having worship prac till close to 11pm. all the parents were calling to ask WHERE ON EARTH ARE Y'ALL!! but it was coz everyone was having so much fun. quite. ^_^
sang crazy songs like I will follow Him.... you think you don't know the song? think again...
I will follow Him
ever since He touched my heart a-new
there isn't an ocean too deep
no mountain so high it can keep
keep me away..
away from His love.......
whoots. ^_^
then they all so cute... colour-coded one.
^_^ hahahaa. how lovely. they all did marvellously, too. well done boys! ^_^ even though we did have plenty of moments like this:
his feet were up on a chair some more, just that i didn't bother to catch that. XD
nat also loves to play the bass:
well here's some more random photos... XD i'm stocking up again.
js teaching shaunald some guitar... heheh. joshua and jonathan, the li brothers! aww... aren't they sweet? and here comes martin the extra. XD the Soft-Cheek Gang stands bonded and strong together! mwahahahahaa!! oh this was today during TSD. hahahaa. funny stuff.
denise & chiawyee. ^_^ you are very.. PREEEEETTYYYYY... *laughs* luvluv.
well. min seems to have picked up a kitten... aww... how cute and adorable. ^_^ [just like a phoeb] well then. ^_^ chaoz~
this is some random picture taken during class outing after teacher's day celebrations. ^_^ chenxing looks quite good here. this one, was taken on the 2nd, at the bbq at amanda's place. it was alrite. this pic is quite cute, char + ian + ben look so engrossed in observing the radio. XD random pic of gerald + nathaniel ^_^ this was last sunday, at the hawker centre opp ginza. XD crazy guys. shaunald + nat + marcus + js just to see how i look with my hair tied up. it's getting irritating. mich. i forgot which lesson this was in. econs? not sure but i think so. this was the one where my gastric was acting up so i asked her whether she had food and she threw me her peanut-butter sandwich. the one that her brother made, using up half the peanut butter in the newly bought jar. it was super heavy lahz. xiao. ate two mouthfuls and then couldn't take it any more HAHAH. everyone say hello to sindhura's rabbit. XD a bit more self-love yesterday after the rest of the class left for some movie at j8. whatever happened to mugging? ah nvm. this act cute picture is disappearing tmr. some idea of what was going on during the TSD consultation that me and nivi stayed back in school for four hours for.
hrmz. before i get the videos up.... let's have some Zack lurv!!!
whoots~~
marcus's version of What A Wonderful World. enjoy
oh come on, she's not that scary! XD in fact, yingqing is damn chio.. so chio that she just has to do some shampoo advert moves and wenloong's voice gets all dirty-old-man-ish:
what happened yesterday after econs tutorial as we walked down the corridor towards our GP/KI classes.
they started running! and then we started going round and round. in front of the lifts. EVERYONE was staring. XD omg our class rocks. XD when you see nothing but feet and blurs, i kinda forgot about the camera for awhile. haha!
... what can i say? SIGH. yiwen likes to gay alot. in fact, all my class guys like to gay alot. and their most frequent target is.... weiren. -.-
ermz. yeah. they were playing. very happily. play until aaron was sweating like crazy and his hands were lobster-red. super retarded but rather amusing.
heh. i have such crazy friends.
never a boring day.
and this is yiwen again. he is the one who positioned his own phone. ^_^ i couped the vid. he was horrified.
my class has been up to some rather crazy stuff, today alone... i got quite alot of videos. but also not quite in the mood to watch them and sift through them and upload them all tonight... maybe tomorrow. yes. perhaps. tomorrow.
sorry dudes.
to moca: hahaa... somehow that convo we had really got me down. it wasn't so much anything that you said, but more of, halfway thru, something in my chest started to ache. it still is. i don't know why.. well now, i guess we know i haven't really left it behind me yet.
lalala... in a way, i'd have to give you credit. you're quite clever to bide your time to ask like that. if you'd asked me back then, like a few months ago, maybe even a few weeks, or days, i don't know, i would've just looked at you and smiled. but now you've convinced me that you're one of the good guys, even though your name is the same as my youngest brother (who was hogging the comp even before advent children finished playing).
hahaa. i have come to the sudden revelation (once again) that i don't have any close friend, now.
how hilarious.
*laughs*
*laughs harder*
damn, this is getting quite hard to keep up. i don't know how i got into TSD at all. stupid godot. stupid, stupid, stupidstupid
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:06 p.m.:.
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.:Monday, September 11, 2006:.
modern-day miracles DO happen
heylo my loves, sorry to say, i have stupidly downloaded something that has resulted in my computer crashing because of the invasion of loads of spyware, and probably viruses as well. i hope that the computer will be reformatted by the time i reach home today. XD
my Pa was so sweet, he went and bought all of us, me + martin + marcus + my mom a 1gb thumb drive EACH. as a beginning of term present. XD hahaha. well. i like it when he's in such a good mood... as in, who likes people shouting at you?
but niwaez the main thing about this particular post... i have forty-five minutes to type this before i have to rush off for GP... which is... ooh. downstairs. but yes.
actually i'm not very sure how much i'm supposed to say here... but just tell y'all generally what happened lahz.
my great grandmother was hospitalized a few days ago, with a serious case of gangrene. she being a great grandmother, she's kinda old liaoz lahz and yeah. the initial decision was to amputate the leg, but then the doctors said her platelets count was far too low, her blood wouldn't clot after the operation, so they couldn't carry it out.
the first night my mom went to see her, she came back looking very tired and worried and sad.. and she was telling us that my ggrandma seemed to be in alot of pain and she hardly responded, except when she absolutely wanted or had to. then she'd like mutter a "mm". my mom was telling us that when she was leaving, she told her "Jesus loves you", and "Jesus will always be with you" and she went "mm" both times, very firmly. hahaaa my mom was saying after that she told her "i love you" and my ggrandma didn't reply. but basically, they were saying be prepared, she's probably going to leave us anytime now.
well niwaez friday night after dinner, my mother brought the three of us down to go see her.. and on the way she like told us more about her.. coz of various family problems my mom had, she and her brother and sister ended up being brought up by this good lady, mostly.
that night she seemed slightly better, kinda, at least from what the adults said. she responded alot more, and she could move, and she spoke a bit. she said she had a headache. hahaa.
when we were leaving there was some whispered debate in the corridors about releasing her spirit or dunno what... my aunt had gotten hold of this chinese bible and she was trying to translate it into Cantonese.. i mean even though the dialect stems from chinese, you can't just read it word for word, certain things won't make sense if you try to do that. so she was having some problem... but she really wanted to read it to my ggrandma. my ggrandma's christian btw.
last night, my parents told us this really amazing thing that happened at the hospital... when my aunt read the bible [in cantonese] to my ggrandma, she became very alert, and she sat up and was really LISTENING. she was alot more conscious than all the rest of the time.
as i said before, my aunt wasn't really very good at this translation thingy. so she asked my grandfather, who was there, to help her translate and read it. at first he refused. then my aunt told him, "i'm not asking you to believe in what it's saying, i'm just asking you to read to her!" so in the end he agreed.
and it went from there. almost all my relatives on my mother's side are not Christians, but because of the way my ggrandma responded to the word, and to the Christian songs and hymns, all of them were reading the Bible to her, singing the songs to her... people who would otherwise have nothing at all to do with Christianity.
so i wanna ask all who're reading this to do me a favour please.. just pray for my ggrandma, and pray for the rest of my relatives, that somehow in these seemingly meaningless recital sessions, that they will be spoken to.. that their hearts will be open.
my greatgrandmother was discharged from NUH last night. praise be to the Lord.
on a lighter and more random note, i miss watching FFVII Advent Children! shall watch it first thing when i get back home.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:12 a.m.:.
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.:Friday, September 8, 2006:.
the things that boys do when bored and at paul's house:
ok. the scenario was this: marcus + nathaniel over at paul + mark + luke's house. [my wrist is currently killing me] and they're spamming people, paul being what paul is. so he used marcus's account and posted nonsense to me, sandra and juan, all in different convo boxes. but of course he said the same thing.
KAI says: fritzy gump
responses:
me: shut up paul.
sandra: ok
juan: huh??
KAI says: bee sai
responses:
me: ...
sandra: ok
juan: huh????
so in the end, they decided to just focus on irritating juan. XDXDXD
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 01:26 p.m.:.
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.:Thursday, September 7, 2006:.
random update
haven't updated for some time.. coz 1. nothing much's been happening, just me slacking around 2. what i've actually been doing, i don't want to tell. XD
i can tell you that FFVII Advent Children the movie is being watched AGAIN right now. it must be the, what, nineteenth time?
actually i'm not really sure it's that much. i just like the number 19.
hrmz... what else... oh yeah i just called my math tutor for help.
XD she panicked.
"how many weeks do you have left to promos!?!?!"
"three."
"how do you expect me to teach you everything from then? you're in RJ right?"
"yeah."
"yeah, then there's integration and--"
"wait wait~!! i'm only taking h1 math!"
"oh! oh."
"so i'm only learning half the stuff. only just started on integration."
"so is integration tested?"
"er... yeah. i guess. butbut i don't really need so much help on my integration and differentiation, it's just the topics before that."
"oh like functions and [sth] huh."
"er... *not quite sure so anyhow agree* yah."
"oh ok. you still have to arrange your time.."
HAHAHAHAA. just like that. funny. actually her panic got me cringing a bit. but well. she asked me to bring my notes down so she could know exactly what i'm being tested on.. hahaa.
oh man. maths and econs can just go and die lahz. GRAH.
ok lahz, that's all for now for my random update. i wanna go watch Advent Children liaoz. heee. i think we're going to watch it until we can memorise every single line. ^^ it has happened before...
I will have no other gods before You
Only You will reign as my heart's King
I will have no other gods before You
I will put You first in everything
with all my heart
with all my soul
with all my might I want to love You Lord
with all my heart
with all my soul
with all my might i want to love You Lord.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 08:18 p.m.:.
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.:Saturday, September 2, 2006:.
不知哭还是笑才好……
wah what can i say? yesterday and the day before were damn fun... even after what happened to my wrist.
went to the chinese sinsei today and after the OUCH, generally things are alot better. the lump that swelled up disappeared... the adults around were like laughing like omg.
hope it heals soon.
thanks to my classmate lovelies who were there yesterday... ^_^ esp loong... even tho enli and i were like laughing at the tape bandaging yesterday on the way home... like really... everytime we looked at it we started laughing... *laughs* kawai ne...
btw i'm still hooked on advent children. today alone i alrdy watched it twice. lost count of how many times exactly i've watched it in the past... two? three? days.. heh... ZACK <33
ok this is killing my wrist. gah. i can't do ANYTHING. can't write, can't play piano, can't play guitar.... that's kinda why last night i was screaming into the mic at moca's place like crazy, coz i felt super handicapped coz i couldn't play ANYTHING around. owell *shrugs*
i should re-write the chapter where Keary succumbed to the frustration of not being able to play piano... at least the emotions won't be totally 无病呻咛. shucks. did i write that wrongly? have a feeling i did. gahhh...
good thing my dad brought me to SKS after that. now i have this whole new set of books to read... whoots. fill my time. ^_^ see ya peeps arnd!
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 03:27 p.m.:.
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.:Thursday, August 31, 2006:.
advent children.
wheeheee totally high right now... XDXD class outing today was super fun! time really flies when you're enjoying yourself... whoots.... w'all went seoul garden for lunch, then went to play pool, naturally got stuck at a nearby arcade again, and then all unanimously decided to go home and save our energy for later. there's nothing really much else i can say about it unless you want me to relate the fun bits, which would be regurgitating the entire day's events. which is crazy coz i'm freaking sleepy.
oh it's the handphone part of advent children the movie again. XDXD this silly smile comes on my face every single time i see Zack. which is like, once in the beginning, and once at the end. and i laugh like crazy everytime the handphone ringing part comes.
omg these people are damn beautiful.
.:-krayle*- hugged all her loves at 11:28 p.m.:.
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.:Tuesday, August 29, 2006:.
here i go again
and i'm back with a whole new episode of pictures and stuffs! heh heh. ok lahz, not alot of the stuffs, coz the videos that i took recently aren't that interesting. or perhaps i'm just lazy. XD
let's see what i have today.
... i feel like i'm looking in the Barney bag. yes, remember the barney bag? i forgot the song liaoz though.
this was at dinner on sunday... they were debating on the importance and ... don't know what of developing financial stability... financial independence... and don't know what lahz... it went on to religious issues as well. didn't really get involved. but of course i was half listening to everything they said so whenever paul said sth stupid i'd glare at him. but as you can see, because of my hair that day, it didn't look very scary.
yeah. sad huh. i shouldn't do that ever again. but i was kinda desperate to get the strands out of my eyes... grah!
ok now i have to move on to today...
this is yiwen. class noob.
i was sitting right behind him. sigh. wen loong was terribly amused, i think, coz i was leaning forward with my highlighter trying to write 'FOOL' on the crown, while yiwen was leaning forward trying to colour sophia's hair [sorry, don't know what colour] and mich was busy aiming her eraser periodically at the crown. she's quite a good shot. but she stopped when she missed and it flew past yiwen's face and hit the sleeping moca smack on the back. XDXDXD *laughs head off*
ok. talking about loong.. after GP today we spent half an hour listening to mrbrown stuff and telling stupid jokes. XD not that the jokes were very funny, they were quite terribly jokes [especially the ones that loong told XP].
hahaaa he looks quite cute here. pity my camera's not fast enough to catch him looking up.
you know i just realised that i really really really should be starting on my Othello essay. but i'm terribly loathe to do so.
sigh tmr have consultation with mrlyon again. super screwed. haven't done ANYTHING like i think i'll just conveniently print a few pages of "research" now... i wonder how many times he's regretted letting me into TSD. heh. hopefully he hasn't actually thought about it or put it on those terms in his mind. >_<
*random comment*eiri yuki's hawt.
aiyah. i shall send over the scanlations for Boys Next Door to mich... she had this sudden urge to read jap gay manga stories. well. they ARE rather heart-rending. brokeback anyone? the soundtrack's out btw.... hrmz... wonder whether i'll be able to find that acoustic guitar song. i remember i kinda liked it. but i can't remember how it goes. ^_^
ok lahz i'm off the comp. tired. nitez. here's a picture of a little girl's slippers on a trash bin. somehow it made me kinda sad.
they got a pinata~! hahaha... i'm very proud of martin. third person to give it a go and he whacked the head right off! xD sadly, i didn't really take alot of photos... hoping that some videos and stuff'll pop up. should coup from jonathan. xD 
won this balloon for "most creative"... dressing i think. wore this off-shoulder thing. super uncomfortable i don't think i'll ever wear it again. grrr. poor mom. she paid 23 bucks for that thing. got swindled. grah.
my pretty pretty best friend. =D
me spoiling the picture.
the sky was nice after it rained at vivo.
i didn't spoil this picture too badly i think.
there was a pretty pretty rainbow! dawn saw it and said, "oh look, rainbow! rainbows appear on lucky days." i looked at my watch and said, "it's the 14th." and she started laughing at me. *lho*
new haircut~
my fave pic from last night.
me and wing.
wing and me. 
i really really like the reflection on the ground. i don't even know why there's a reflection on the ground. the floor's not even shiny.
shawn vs janessa... showdown!!
janessa's shoes. guess whose sexy legs?
an attempt at an arty picture.
the four pflug brothers walking together. it was super cute. hahahaa. brotherhood!! actually this was taken more for mich. not like you can see their faces, actually.
paul's prank on the kindergarteners that were inside the music room downstairs. basically if you can't see, that's all the shoes that were outside the room, and he formed them into a cross. *laughs* it was crazy.
random car. but hello??? who puts YAKULT signs on their car? someone was with me when i took it, was it martin or shaunald? but basically the owners were walking back and shouted at us. then we ran lol.
pictures of the lovely grand piano in LT2. 
and a slacking weiren.
random picture. L!
this tuesday practical was used for planning how to advertise for TSD during openhouse. isaac and i found ourselves without our acting partners so we put our heads together and decided that there was nothing we could do for acting. coz it was the basics. and coz we were tired and sleepy and lazy to really think of anything. xD so for awhile we joined the costumes people, ally and jenny. ally was in the random mermaid pose.
can't really remmeber what happened here... but i think our family went to swensons for ice cream at night... sth like that. yupz. and on the way back we realised that the three of us were wearing army-print clothes. check it out.
cute lil puffins. they were at the penguin gallery though. o_O
afro birds. whoots. 
bird haven. so pretty. but it stunk there. 
don't ask me what's this random picture.
this is a nice picture of a zen-looking stone in the middle of a murky river. it has moss all over it. quite cool lehz. at least to me.
the directors, shawn, janessa, yingzi
forgot where exactly this was, but there was this reptile sitting plonk in the middle of the path and we didn't really know what to do. however seema, as you can see, happily started snapping pictures of it.
this was at the dunno what place lahz. the one with ice cream. =) i was kinda tired alrdy, so didn't go down.
the owl place is super cool. but there was hardly any lighting, so even in night-mode, this was the best picture i got.
you can kinda see the bird and the tree here too la.
random scary-looking tree. 
shawn, tired out and asleep on the train. his posture looked so painful. yilun and seema were walking their fingers on his back. heh. again i'm wondering whether i should put the video up. again my laziness wins.
welcome to... *drumroll* THE BRINJAL CLUB!! 
this is still Sunday. went over to khoong's place. basically the three of us, khoong + wing + me planned to stayover, do the script, and then go to sch together tmr. heh. i have no idea what they're looking at but yeah.
wing likes to play with the stuffed toys. it's the happy pooh family picture! ^^
my name. RAC, if you can see.
then when he ran out of water and threw his bottle away, he used mine instead. those are his legs. he was waiting to ambush sophia, who was in the girls' toilet. also have a video here. wahaa. i just might upload them afterwards. depending.
don't ask me what the bottle is there for.
and i only noticed then the power socket at the ceiling.
playing Game of Life with mich + jenn [is that how you spell it?] and tara. started off with the lousiest pay and stuff but in the end i think i was the richest. heh. i realise life is really like that. things tend to go your way when you don't care too much. and vice versa.
don't ask me what ally was doing. 
mich and ally. i just realised it looks kinda bad, but yeah. scream if you want me to put it down.
jeannifer!!! she's such a dear.
nopez, loong is actually on his own feet and not being piggy-backed.
the mass of stuff when we went to Great World City macs for supper that night. hahaha... actually it was quite a coincidental choice. guoren's parents happened to be there as well, watching movie. and then, i found out awhile later, so were mine! o_O
tired out during one of the performance rehearsals... the date this pic was taken of me and ally is the 24th. the morning after the evan concert... gee i feel damn tired just thinking about it.
chiawyee and i on the first night of production, 26th. 
this picture is damn scary. it somehow looks like my head is coming out from the wall.
this is how the side view looks like.
second night! yingzi darling added the red stuff below my eyes. which was super scary, mich said after.
yilun, acting as the Wild One. 
another horror pic.
in the girls' toilet after that night's performance. i messed up so badly.
third and last night of production! i took alot of pictures. that's mich, and yingzi doing jeannifer's makeup. 
chiawyee posing for ally's camera. amazingly, my camera caught the flash. xD
a, erm, Wild pose?
this is definitely an indian pose. ^^ <33 vani dearest.
this is vani close up. hope you can see the makeup. 
more of chiawyee, the sexy scary lady in red. it looks like she's doing an advertisement for the waterbottle. 
tamara!! [hope i spelt that name right] she just reminds me so much of chunen, though more sober and sane than my neighbour, and she has that typical MG girl look about her. so sweet. ^^
ally. 
yingzi doing seema's makeup.
exclusively yingzi. such a darling. ^^
yilun and janessa working on mich's makeup. if you look closely she's giving a V sign to the camera. xD
ally again. why did i upload this pic???
vani and chiawyee. ^^ lovelies.
more tamara. she was avoiding my camera.
nivi dear. ^^
these two are acting gay forever and ever amen. but of course we all know that loong is perfectly straight and aaron loves his girlfriend to bits. wahahahaa.
the guys that were there that night, minus moca.
a picture of the flowers, as promised. of course this was taken the next day when they'd been taken out of the silver wrappers and put into a vase. ^^ lovely. 
i especially like the one that loong gave because he took the effort to write my name on it. of course he did the same for mich and ally's. ^^
didn't go for YE coz they were having games and i was kinda worn out, so had to go for main service, which was seemingly supposed to be family service. but the sermon was SO not for family, it was for parents, at the most. so of course i was bored to death and started taking pictures of random things like this. i took this during prayer while everyone's eyes were closed. it's a picture of the back of the pew i was sitting behind. see the little girl's feet? it's supposed to be freaky, but i tried it on moca, he said the chinese bible there scared him more. diao lol.
dinner at surf-n-turf at suntec with Wing darling. it was a fierce battle between us and the food.
resorted to playing with it. this is a face. two deep fried mushroom starters and a fry.
then it got a bit more complicated. long beans for eyebrows, cauliflower for the nose, and tomato for the tongue. so it's like this: >:-P
the fountain. i wonder what you guys would give to know what happened there.
i think aaron's gonna kill me for these. pls don't tell him. >_<
yeah. i didn't get a very good angle... O__O
random butterfly that was at the bus stop outside my school. i think it was dead. this is a very pretty picture. ^^
marcus's stuffed Oddish.
here's a close-up.
these were from Sunday.. heh... otanjoubi omedetou! 
bella's really really amused by this door. heh. it's some armoury room that we came across at the carpark there when we were walking out of school together the other day. hahahaha. she was like "aiyoh. how come lock until like that!" then i said "maybe got monster inside." then she was tickled by the idea.. hahaha! you should see her laugh. no. actually. you should have seen her today:
so cute eh? ahaha. 
er, yeah. if you didn't realise, that's isaac. jenny almost gave him boobies as well... but... she didn't. ahhahaa. isaac was like: "oh, my mom's gonna be so proud of me." and then. that jenny went to leave the padded boob cups all over the place. T_T it was horrifying.
there, one of them is on isaac's head, and the other on zhengjie's but you can't see it coz of the angle. this is supposed to be some pozzo&lucky pose i think.. hahaha.. it's our studied text for this year. funn stuff. it... IS kinda... ermz... kinkyish... but.. well.
js teaching shaunald some guitar... heheh.
joshua and jonathan, the li brothers! aww... aren't they sweet?
and here comes martin the extra. XD
the Soft-Cheek Gang stands bonded and strong together! mwahahahahaa!!
oh this was today during TSD. hahahaa. funny stuff.
denise & chiawyee. ^_^ you are very.. PREEEEETTYYYYY... *laughs* luvluv.
this is some random picture taken during class outing after teacher's day celebrations. ^_^ chenxing looks quite good here.
this one, was taken on the 2nd, at the bbq at amanda's place. it was alrite. this pic is quite cute, char + ian + ben look so engrossed in observing the radio. XD
random pic of gerald + nathaniel ^_^
this was last sunday, at the hawker centre opp ginza. XD crazy guys. shaunald + nat + marcus + js
just to see how i look with my hair tied up. it's getting irritating.
mich. i forgot which lesson this was in. econs? not sure but i think so. this was the one where my gastric was acting up so i asked her whether she had food and she threw me her peanut-butter sandwich. the one that her brother made, using up half the peanut butter in the newly bought jar. it was super heavy lahz. xiao. ate two mouthfuls and then couldn't take it any more HAHAH.
everyone say hello to sindhura's rabbit. XD
a bit more self-love yesterday after the rest of the class left for some movie at j8. whatever happened to mugging? ah nvm. this act cute picture is disappearing tmr.
some idea of what was going on during the TSD consultation that me and nivi stayed back in school for four hours for.
